Finding Your Brave and Living Yourself
Can I be really honest and tender with you, friends? Sometimes I worry.
With each new thing I write, I worry that if I am my authentic self, it will offend you. I worry that I am not enough, and at the same time somehow, too much. I worry that I, not just the content of what I say, will be criticized for being too liberal, too conservative, too Christian, too heretical, not in line with this or that particular interpretation of the Scriptures. As a woman, I worry that even using my voice at all to teach or speak on God and the Bible will invite criticism from people who believe God only gives that ability to men. I worry that what I see in the Bible – an upside-down Gospel and a God who is impossibly in love with us, all of us, no exceptions – might contrast so sharply with what some folks have been taught that it will cause backlash and division if I speak up. I worry that I won’t be able to stand up for truth under the scrutiny.
But then Exodus 14:14 rings out in my soul like a bell. “The LORD will fight for you, you need only to be still.” And just like that, I find my brave again.
Be still, my soul. The LORD is on your side.
Don’t I know by now that He will be faithful to fight for me? That if I am being faithful to the next little steps He has asked of me, if I share what I see in His word, and sing out unafraid the insights He whispers as I fully become who I was meant to be, it can only edify and/or positively challenge others? When we live authentically, and refuse to hide our true selves, others can learn from our experiences and our journeys. And often we learn that we are not as alone as we think. Others who feel the same way come out of hiding too and say things like, “oh my gosh, I thought I was the only one.” My brave makes others brave, too.
And I know the next time I need a reminder that I am not in this thing alone, that I only speak because there is Someone who is behind me gently pushing, I will remember the words of my favorite Person.
I will fight for you.
You need only to be still.
Anyone else need this reminder? Take a second and let Jesus whisper to your heart. All His promises are true and trustworthy. On them, we can stand and be authentic together. Take heart, brave ones. We are not alone.