Day 13: Lean In // 31 Days of Hope in Brokenness
Hi there! This is day 13 of a series I’m writing this October called 31 Days of Hope in Brokenness. You can find the entire series here: 31 Days of Hope in Brokenness.
Sometimes you have been broken for so long, crying out for healing for so long, that you begin to believe the lie that Jesus is not going to heal you. I have stood in that place. You hear stories and testimonies of others who were healed quickly or through a simple solution, and while you’re authentically grateful for their healing, you begin to wonder why you are left still struggling. Believers don’t talk about this much, so the space between realizing you need healing and actually being healed can be a lonely walk. It doesn’t have to be.
Not all stories are nice and neat. One of the reasons I wanted to write this series is so that others who are still in that inbetween space will feel less alone there. When you’re there, sometimes people don’t get it and may even question your faith or your relationship with God. I want you to know that your emotional damage does not make you less of a believer. Your inability to heal in a day or a week or a month or a year doesn’t make your faith weak. Some things take time, even for our mighty God. Even He took six days to create the world we live in, and some Bible scholars suggest that the “days” in Scripture were much longer periods of time. You and I took nine months to be knit together in our mothers’ wombs before being born into the world. The earth wasn’t built in a day – neither are you. Neither is your healing.
So what do we do when it hurts and Jesus doesn’t immediately heal us right when we ask?
We learn to lean in.
Leaning in is trusting that He who has begun a good work in us will not leave it abandoned but will bring it – and us – to completion.
Leaning in is hoping for a bright future where we will experience wholeness, either in this life or the next.
Leaning in is staying close to His wisdom through reading the Scriptures, listening hard for His voice all around us, and looking for input from trusted godly friends.
Leaning in is owning and working on our issues and doing our part to promote our healing process. This may include therapy, counseling, medication, journaling, being part of a support group, meditation, exercise, reading books specific to our problem or situation, and other tools God may use to help us heal.
Leaning in is recognizing that we are works in progress, and that’s okay. It turns out most people have some brokenness in them, so this doesn’t actually make us that different from everybody else, even though it may feel that way.
Leaning in is not allowing our wounds to stop us from living our lives, but instead laying all our hurts and heartaches at the foot of the cross and living bravely anyway.
Leaning in is understanding that even if we fail at all the above things, we can still do our best and trust that Jesus is enough.
Leaning in, like a child into the crook of her Father’s arm, reminds us that we are His daughters, protected and free. Even if it doesn’t feel like that just yet.
Lean in, precious child of God. Let Him comfort you while you heal. I don’t know what His timeline is or the purposes behind it, but you can bet He is working on it. There will be a day when He will change your mourning into dancing and your ashes into beauty. Until that day, join me in leaning into Him.